damn it. i now feeling really moody.
:(
haiz, seriously i keepthinking about it and it reallt makes me feel so left out in the group and really, its like u guys only approach me when u find there's nothing to do or like find me so lonely and pathetic sitting alone at one side. i really cannot take it anymore!!!!!!!!!! :( wo zhen de yao beng quai le. seeing u two together so close is actually ok with me, but like after a while, i find myself so close to u yet our hearts are so far apart. i dun mind like u guys being so close but seriously i felt so left out. i wanna cry out loud!!!!!!!!! ><
u guys are bfgf. but yet somehow u claimed i was yr baby one day and the next i'm a stranger. a nobody. i hate it. i hate this god damn feeling alright.
and then u guys tease me sometimes, ok i'm fine with it but then somehow later i dislike it okay. and yr councillor calling. u two became so close until i feel myself a di san zhe. an extra freak trying to fit in when me myself noe there's o room for me at all. seriously, continue with yr beef wadever thingy, just that one day i'll go crazy...

p.s: i just hope that one day i'll get hit be a car and go to hospital. that's all what i wish for for now. (:

what makes her your dream and your fantasy? :)
because i can't remember when it was me...

haha. i love that part of the song, ''when it was me''
it just reminds of of the wonderful things in life.
just like today, i met my pri sch best friend, Sarah Kim! :D
yeepe, i was like so happy. hahas, but crap, forgot to give her a puffy huggie be4 she left.
cos she tmw heading to taiwan. omg, its Zann's favourite place>>her luo zi xiang over there!
xD
and she'll be there for a week. same like me when i went to suzhou! i hope she'll enjoy herself.
teehee. taiwan was a place i wanted to go too. but china's on my list as well. and i went there indeed. finally! going overseas with friends had been the best things in my life since i was born.
i totally love it and i really pray hard to God that he'll make it possible again. ^^
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. AND YOU CAN DO IT THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS US.
i love these 2 quotos. they give me the motivation&determination to do it. just like playing the x-box game today, my brother and cousin were like saying u can't make it. yr soldiers will turn against you. you confirm die de. blahblahblah....i was like damn. why destroy the hope i haf in me. at least to me, die with glory and honour. &&& i DID IT! (:(:(:(;(:(:(:(; i was like fighting to the very end until time out. serously, after playing, my hands n7umb le. hahas. guess i press too hard the controller for too long. they were kinda surprised i could hold out for so long. aiya, my guan yu is the best lah. just that i hate the part of him being fat and heavy, not fat. erm, muscular?! run so slow=.=lll den enemies always catch up so fast. it was a great game!
& today we didn't go cycling cos the weather was freakking hot. like so sunny and i bet u can cook a egg there on the roadside. though i love the sky view but the temperature is kinda high until i bathe like 2 times!? usually i bathe once. haha. i'm a dirty girl u may think. wadever.
then. now i'm supposed to pack my things fro tmw's dance outing!!!!! YAY! finally my wish is coming true. me and denise spent loads of time cracking our brains to come up with. if it didn't suceed tmw, i'll seriously faint on the spot. haha. sounded that serious yea. today was real tiring. i had group meeting for sec 1 orientation and then met up with denise to tok bout it. we sms-ed and called. even use public phone! ><
then we went for lunch. she ate kfc i ate subway. we talked and saw a lot too. at the level 3, there was some event and a few handicap ppl sitting on wheelchairs came. most were kids, i was shocked. i kept looking at them, they looked happy. in which me and denise kinda puzzled. but i realised. maybe they don't noe their future yet. them being innocent and thinking sitting on wheelchair can wheel here and there is fun, but they never know they may noe be able to stand up forever. i was quite sad upon thinking that. i hope God will be with them. Bless them. :)
so yup, i got to go pack my things. seriously luan dao very irritating. it kinda pissed me off. haha
love ya everybody! sarangheiyo

LALALA. i've been so busy today. feel like dying.
packing all the stuffs until no time for discussion for this thur's thingy. :(
i hate it. i'm like some busy business woman goin crazy over planning of things.
darn it ;X
but then with God on my side and my lucky leaf necklace, things are getting better and not so out of hand. :)
so like my whole day today is booked. pack finish, den clean up my table. go bank withdraw 100 bucks return my parents. aiya den after that i got to at least do some work or think of smth. for the planning, it's driving me crazy!
& somemore tmw i got so many things to do too, got group meeting for the discussion bout the sec orientation and another private meeting for this thur thingy. then got to stay at home cos sarah need to collect her winter clothes from me. haiz, i'll miss the puffy jacket the most!!!!!
:(
k, so i got to go now. damn it. i wanna rest longer. but i got too many things!

:) Yeppe! i bought a black dress and a smiling face necklace to wear for ms foo's wedding!
hahas. i've been like so frustrated for days, thinking bout wwad am i goin to wear.
well, now i can heave a sign of relief. but yet i've not told me mum. afraid too.
i was like telling myself i think i'm not goin to buy any new clothes for the rest of the year. :X
but then life has been good for me, i have to admit. thanks to my dance mates;D
I FELT REALLY HAPPY FOR THW WHOLE OF LAST WEEK!!!
i kept smiling like a fool and it freaked them out. ahahs.
that kind of feeling is like so hard to describe. there's this kind fo sweet feeling in me~
i really love it.
oh yup, i'm really looking forward to this week. there's goona be loads of things happening. is like so little time to plan. damn.
anw, i got to discuss the plans with jackqueline. haha. i guess i'll have to sms her. but i prefer tok by phone. it makes the discussion easier and fast. oh and i haven done a single piece of hw. crap shit.
is like going to end of nov le. aiyaya. i go no mood to do! i haven even pack finish all the garbage. haven even buy my sec 3 boooks. pathetic. ><
so now qi gu and javier is at our house. they playing stress and watching tv now?!
oh and u guys go check out facebook, hahas. there are videos and pictures uploaded.
when we were in dance camp, we were too bored and thus camwhoree! [:
life was terrible yet awesomee during those days.
&&& some goody news! I'M PART OF ODT!!!!!!!!! (: *for now*
we practiced lots and mr tan changed most steps. until i was like dying cos of tiredness. last sat was like my worst day. first time joining yet first time heartwarming experience.
and i've really got many problems to solve currently. gosh! i kinda hate it.
okay, i shall do up my old blog back to life. haha. i dun wan to destroy all the past memories. maybe some time.
k, may i pray that my mum dun scold me for buying the dress! (:

lalala! now i'm with sharene. hahas.
we are playing boxhead 2 currently. her lappy kinda lag. but its okay, haha(:
we like super fast lah. level 13 i think. teehee.
and i think sharene going to learn some new games that i'm going to introduce to her.
yeepe! (:
alright, later we'll go to this fashion and see what dresses we wan. haha. i hope by ms foo's wedding, we'll get wad we wan. cos i next whole week got dance camp and by next fri, sha's going to china; beijing. haiz, so like got no time to shop for clothes:X
and erm, i'm getting freaking irritated. asshole uncle. haha. sha's calling him an idiot.
anw, he's gone for good. now we can continue playing! haha
tata:D

yayaya! i'm back from china! :D
WOOTS. haha. i'm happy but sad as well.
anw, this is like 5 days since i came back, sorry for not blogging earlier.
but i've been pretty lazy. slacking.
& of corz the trip to suzhou for 8 days was AWESOMEEE:)
the days spent there was really great. memorable.
and yea for that whole trip, my room mate was Zann aka Zi An aka Zi Ying.
:]
oh yup, forgot to say. i made two new buddies. they are han jin fang and fei liang yan. they are very nice and its a pleasure to meet them. ok i think the photos i shall all post on facebook. and some on blogger yea. some time.
cos now i seriously wanna go bathe. after learning the wondergirls dance, i sweat so much and stink.
okay, so shall catch up later!

PUFFY'S GOING OFF FOR NOW~

yo everyone?! time really flies, now is like my sec 2 year is coming to an end.
sobs:(
i really dun like this feeling. i hate it.
especially when i have to missed 3 days of school cos going for the suzhou trip. ><
damn it. wh ycan't like afetr school end then go ahh? like that den not so sad wahh....
anw, i got to tuck into bed early. but i really dun wan. though tmw must wake up super early like 4plus. but i wan to listen songs, blog and go facebook! ;X
haiz, this year especially i had loads of fond memories and i really will miss everybody! FADS. 2PEACE-IANS. i'll definitely miss the mostt! and yea. the teachers who taught me as well. gosh, i really super duper feel like crying. i will ren de.
and yea, though being part of 2peace, somehow it was terrible but because that's how our class is like. not united. noisy. siao. and that's why we're unique! :D
i really love the times in 2PC'09. and now loving it. forever loving it. <3
shall see ya real soon! take care!
bye~
off to china! :)

lalala. alright man. today is like just half day more to EOY!
gosh, freaking excited! ;D
hahas. i abit siao one. should be nervous instead. exchange of weird feelings.
guess i study too much den my brain kind of ''sort sort'':)
teehee, anw, most likely now i'm going to start on my math assessment! do algebra!
need to practice yea. cos for math, the theory is: practice makes perfect^^
so yup, i'm goin to do it with some music in the background.
a form of de-stress method:)
so that later when study history, wun be so bored like ytd.
k lah, i got to go le. shall blog on this friday bah! when my eoy ends[:
EVERYONE! jiayou! do your best! xD

-사랑해 <3

BY2-Don't go away:)

Looking through your eyes
There’s nothing to hide
And you’re no longer mine

How could I survive
When you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high

Can’t stop the tears from falling
We used to be so fine
When you walk in to my life
I tried to reach out for you
Just to be with you
My heart is breaking

[Chorus]
Don’t, don’t go away
Baby don’t you know I miss you so
Don’t, don’t go away
I’ve never been on my own before
Can't you hear me just take me with you
So don’t, don’t go away

[Chorus]
Don’t, don’t go away
Baby don’t you know I miss you so
Don’t, don’t go away
I’ve never been on my own before
So won't you feel my heart beat once more

BOOMZ!:)

haha. now that word is my favourite word for this week!

ever since LA, lols. the miss s'pore woman her line. her quote to comment bout her dressing.

xD great description yea.

*i'm being scarastic*

anw, today was totally fabulous!

with the exception of sch time, the rest was awesome alright;D

this week, i had morning duty-sec sch gate. u basically chase the ppl in so that they will not saunter in to sch late. yup, it was tough but i managed it. still got 2 moree days!

i will perservere. and thanks to those discipline 'chers, they help me get off a great load of burden. some of the ppl are like cannot understand english or deaf or blind. seriously.

i like wave to them, shout to them and talk to them. and all that i can do is to hurry them.

gosh...it seems this kinda job sucks. well, yea. u can agree but not 100%.

i love it when its a rainy day:)

i do whatever i can to help those caught in the rain. shelter them to the sch inside. basically i stand outside. someone like a guard officer?! passers-by asked alright.

and for today, amelia came to do duty with me. she got caught by ms alsagoff for her socks.

actually it is okay, cos like i heard that school socks are super low as well. :X

den noel i think also tio for his shoes. haiz, poor ppl! :( at the wrong time and place perhaps.

yup. so ms alsagoff teach us a few things. and i felt it was useful yea. some pointers that i never realised be4.

so after duty, went back to the piano area. some late-comers, including zi rui. kinda surprised captain there. but she's sick lah. shang feng gan mao. so can't blame her. poor captain! i tell her must rest well as well. this girl ahh, too concerned bout studies forget her own health.

den she another one. the 3rd person in fact to be caught but is for improper hair.

so after that, we had assembly. some talk bout grateful, ungrateful. room for improvements etc.

however i wasn't really listening. me and a few councillors sitting at the side playing paper frogs and planes. lols(=

got sam, feby, russell, ian and su wei.

den after like 30mins later, went back to my own class for pe.

we played spa smth. hahas. forget the name! it was fun cos i finally managed to kick it properly over the N-E-T!

den class time, we did zuo ye and some graded assignments. sianz. ms wong and mrs loh didn't come=.=lll

oh and we got another scolding from ms foo:(

poosh, when can our class stop alll this? and get serious?

okay. so scold scold nag nag until like going time's up.

seriously i was darn excited for our trip! OUR MOVIE OUTING-THE FADS!

so when time's up. tony and the guys started leaving. i shouted. ''farah,dahlia & sharene, let's pack up and go!'' xD

I THINK I FREAKED THEM OUT.

we chionged and rush to j8 cos movie starts at 2.20. and we ran under the sun:( sun!!!!!!!!!! damn it.

so we finally met up with them at j8. bought out tickets and popcorn+drinks.went in.

the journey starts!!!!!!!!!! [:

we watched 'fame' its like somesort of high sch musical thingy. except more realistic and nice:)

now after watching, i love ballet dancing moreeeee! (♥)

dada said i was noisy during thw whole show. hahas. guess so. i laugh loud and talk loud too.

so after that, still got some time cos only 4plus. we went to buy food at mac then head to our secret place to slack. we dance. camwhoree. play. have fun in fact! (:

at that time, i thought about our closeness and the fact that fate brought us together!

we dance superjunior-sorry sorry and da dance a japanese song. we dance cha cha and wattz.

we acted as the baddies and the goodies!

we were all siao lah. haha. but i enjoyed loads.

it was bonding time for the fads.

until then, tata my loved ones!

:)

p.s: i pray hard captain get well soon. including me. i guess i'm falling sick:(

p.s: when you're happy, everyone's happy, God's happy too:D

"You Are Not Alone" (Michael Jackson)

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone
'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone
Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
Whisper three words and
I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that
I'll be there
I'll be there
You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone...

:)

Alright. blogger's back to normal. lols.

i've really been waiting damn long for it to get back on tracks. cos pics can't be uploaded:X

which is kinda irrritated. when u got nice pics out there to post;)

anw yup. today was kinda disaster! >.<

we had chinese oral. and i actuaaly thought it'll go well.

howerr i kind of stumble and erm my mind totally went blank.

i can't describe it. its like when the qns popped out of the teacher's mouth. i knew wad it meant.

but maybe i was too afraid. afraid that i can't concentrate. lose my thoughts:(

yea so i started talking and yea i forgot what i wanted to say.

gosh! :( totally horrible! & the cher was like ok. but u did not speak good enough. at least u can pass.

i was like stunned alright. den i go off.

his words-i already knew i lost it. lost the battle.

p.s: i knew someday i was going to fall. fall and then i'm going to pick myself up again. cos there's always someone better than you and someone lousier than you. i felt much better hearing those words. though i not fu qi, but i guess it doesn't matter anwmore. ;D

thanks dada!

oh well. holiday has begun! (:
not really that excited bout it. wonder why. but i just totally didn't really rested. rested as in go com watch videos which i've been longing to. hahaa. good thing though. i resisted from temptation.
except the fact playing facebookie games.
& yup, dance was great! awesomme to the max u can say. though mr tan said bout me blah blah, i dun really care. at least i loved dance. and always do(L)
that's the most important thing to me right now.
while when i'm feeling bored or down, i feel like dancing. dance it all out! ;D
its nice to do so, and it makes me feel good!
oh well. i 've been real badd these days, never stick to my timetable. so now chionging! >.<
tired to the maxx..
and guess wad?! i was thinking of revising history when new of history kinda flooded strait times and world newspapaers. i was like "YES! GOOD CHANCE FOR ME TO REVISE CHAPTER 8". XD crazy freak am i.
but it was really full of info that i've never seen be4. good news. and i wanted to tell sha but i can't contact her currently. poosh:(
so i spent the whole afternoon reading up on history. cos term 4 week 1 got test and u know i can't afford to lose my marks for it since EOY is approaching. i better buckle my seatbelts & pull up my socks! [:
life is difficult and full of obstacles. but when u believe u can, u can! hahas. my quote.
oh btw. i must jiayou dao di!

comment reply!

Lalaland: lols. yup, that's a nice quote! thxs! (:

;D
what's up? hahas. i realised that's sha and willi favourite lines.
btw. today was AWESOOME! though it was a swim-day out! it was great! and sha learnt quite a lot, includin me, don't we? :)
also, when i saw smth. i was quite sad. sad in fact. hurt. didn't noe life could turn out like this. but thxs to CELIA&HER BEST FRIEND! i (L) THEM HELLA MUCH! their comfort. i felt it . thxs a lot. really.




''There'll always be a rainbow after a rain!(♥)''
-Quote from someone

I♥MY DANCE MATES TO THE MAXXXX:D
ahahs. i'm like going crazy, just tagged at both my dears bloggie.
oh well, can't explain how joyful i am right now at this moment.
really thanks to God for answering my prayer. it was he who gave me the courage not to cry when i'm down. & for that, i'll (:
today, i was moody and emo. lost my wallet. very careless. so after dance, i practically chionged back to j8 to ask bout it. and there when i saw my polka dots wallet, i was like ''YES!!!'' its that one. i found it. oh gosh, i was at a loss of words. Happiness all around me and filled my soul.
and before thta, i did had that feeling my wallet was kept safely. the comfort i received from God to stay calm and not panic.
i also danced-all out today. quite happy with my improvement. except i didn't smile. how could i? when my wallet was out somewhere. but now its safe&sound.
alright, i go do my chi assessment le. can't w8 to get started. need to pratice to improve. right? [:

yoyoyo:)
hahas. its been long since i last posted.
oh well, i wanted to blog about 3 things. & these 3 things haf been in my mind for days...
firstly, our results for ct2 haf all been given back. mine was moderate.
but i felt that i could so much much better:)
anw. yea, sha didn't do well though. she was upset and disappointed with her results as well. i know. she's like pass everything except geo. but then her results weren't up to standard.
for me, i told her that if you did not do well this time, jiayou for eoy then! :D
eoy covers like 50%. much higher %. so there's still a chance u can improve.
anw. yup. and her 'secret' was revealed. i'm like trying to comfort her those days. poor girl. for that, she was so scared, worried and upset. she CRIED alright! >.<
& its like that time, a fire was burning inside me. how could she do this to sha?! we are supposed to be ''best friends''. its was dman betrayal. bitch it.
and yup another she upset-ed sha. poor thing. and she kept to herself until i asked smth which made her told me.
:(
oh and now its like over. though still not much communication.
and next, it was about interclass captain ball. well, the guys poosh! they didn't go to compete except for tze hong, lawrence, hong wei, akmal and weijie. thanks ak and wj for playing in the first match:) cos at least u guys bother to make an efort to come. i wun say anything bout wj leaving after the first match. i mean he's not even supposed to play but he help to. i tried calling loon wei and as usual. 'Sian, dun wan play' was his reply.
wadever lah. this type i dun really want to care. he just ruined the peace country. anw, i'm also sorry for being kinda harsh to lw that day. ps. i was upset yep.
hmm. yup and i was wondering right now what the class will say bout the present we bought for the teachers. darn excited for mon to come! (=
i'm kinda high right now. cos i found my darling back! (wallet)
i basically misplaced it in subway and lucky the person helped me keep. it's a long story.
hahasxD
now i find myself such a 'sha gua'^^
oh yar. and i'm going to see all my friends on mon! kcpps. its teahcer's day of corz!
may i wish all teahcers a ADVANCED TEACHER'S DAY! [:

hey ya! :)
haha. today now currently at this moment at this point of time.
adeline quek is feeling so HIGH!
ahahas. maybe its because of history corrections? nah. its the feeling of happiness.
gosh. i'm so absurd. crazy fool. but dun noe why. my mood seems pretty good.
though it was spoilt by some idiot. i was like so angry i kept punching zann's bag.
sorry pear! haha. i was emotionally hurt. though but i dun care now. at all.
it feels great to enjoy and relax! perfect time to blog bout the day's events.
anwway, today lesson went wayyy goody! mostly cos of my chi results! haha. one of the top in class. congrats to mandy too! my scholarly partner! :)
yep. we got the same marks practically and its like we were congratulating each other.
btw, i know his results were so bad. we disappointed miss foo & i kinda feel bad.
we could have done better! :(
poosh...but no worrya! WE WILL STRIVE FOR THE BEST FOR END-OF-YEAR! I DUN CARE! I WILL JIAYOU TO THE EXTREME!
and happy advanced birthday my dear!<3

p.s: i pray hard to God that 2peace will live up to your name.

I'M BACK:)
oh well. life seems pretty back to normal. finally she went to see the doctor, just that report is not out yet.
anw, today in school, dun noe why. but i felt so emotional. hmm...maybe because of the new girl presence?
but not say i dun like her. i just dun quite like her sudden joining into our peace family. it feels werid. we're like still strangers in some sense. & dada is her buddy!
i know fafa's not happy bout it. can see. but wad to do? as a friend, we can just only welcome her:) & make her feel comfortable and happy staying in our class.
well, i dun noe why. but i can't describe how she'snatched'dada away from us. we don't click you see. anwway. i just gotta get this over me and tmr i'll be alright:D
MAYBE IT JUST TAKES TIME....

God, i'm so angry right now. i dun noe wad to say.
this thing makes me so mad and worried. i'm geeting a serious headache.
save me! >.<
she should have went to the doctor. i should have told her to do so. i should have insisted.
damn it, i couldn't even get a simple thing like this done. at least take good care of my friends?
:(

yoyoyo! [:
yep. so yar today me and my dear friend, sharene toh went for a BIG ADVENTURE. *walking around some stupid park* =.=lll at first, wanted to go swimming at sengkang swimming complex, ended up we say the sign, ''POOL CLOSED ON MON'' >.< we nearly fainted. but then nvm lor, we go eat insteatd at mac. too hungry. and that girl cannot resist her temptation. greedy piggy! we bought 2 mac chicken set. i ate her fries:) hahas. den we went for a walk. a long walk. i saw a park den jiu go explore lor. end up, we saw some stick coming up from the ground. acutally a monument. a werid one. so we kept laughing at the pathetic park with only benches. den we a nice, wuluwulu pathway behing this particular bench that leads to the reservoir. we two very siao, nearly wanted to jump into the sea. we went in to explore. heard some birds chirping den we scared until we ran straigh out and we met haha. a old uncle with his quizzical eyes looking at us. i think he went for illegal fishing! he was holding a fishing rod btw. den we went under the bridge to find a loner eating mac there. (i am so lonely, i have nobody, i'm on my own):DDD
so we saw a new island and then we took video while running across the ultra long bridge. it was horrible. vegetable. terrible. den we stopped halfway to take photos. loads of them. den me the siao one sugessted crossing opp to walk back. btw, we saw another park! den we walked back along the same bridge. we stopped halfway to dance. hahas. i taught sharene to dance chengyao dance and classical?! it was funnn. sadly, it rained. we covered our heads with our jackets. RUN FOR OUR LIFEEE. den sharene was like commenting on my coconut head. so wadwever~ den we trained back to bishan. long long journey. met some interesting ppl along e way. & now she's at my house. how interesting! & she laughing! :)

alright, gotta send her out of my house this min! tata@.@

p.s: we must check the timing of the swimming pool if we wan to go swimming!

p.s: i recommended car learners to go sengkang to drive. the roads are wide. even if u crash, u will survive. cos there's the park to save u.

:) hello! hahas. finally a new blog for a new beginning. actually this is something i wish no one would see. its my blog. my life. my privacy. anw, i've been real sick with my old blogskin. its been there for like years?! i created my very own 1st blog when i was in p5! :D oh well. can imagine those times when i was so childish! so yup today is just a brief intro bout myself. will catch up later alright?!